The most afraid I can ever remember being in my life was during the eye surgery of my two-year-old daughter Kelly.
The surgeon explained to Carol and me that there was the rare possibility that Kelly would never wake up once she was under for the surgery.
While Carol and I sat in the waiting room, I could not stop crying. I was terrified.
The Lord gently whispered to my heart, “Brett, I want you to trust me. Brett I want you to trust me no matter what happens. If Kelly doesn’t wake up and she comes to live with me, I want you to trust me.”
I thought, “I’m trying Lord. Just please don’t leave us!”
After what felt like an eternity, a nurse brought Carol and I into a private area and explained that Kelly was waking up and that she would most certainly be nauseous but not to worry because her stomach was empty.
I asked Carol if I could hold her first. She said, “Yes.”
Kelly was placed in my arms. She opened her eyes. She began to try to throw up. Nothing came out of her mouth but tears of blood began streaming out of her eyes and running down her cheeks. The nurse standing there quickly said, “That is normal.” And handed me a cloth diaper for me to wipe her cheeks.
As I was wiping the blood from her face, the Lord whispered to me again. I don’t mean out loud, but in my mind. I heard Him say, “My Son Jesus bled from his forehead and the blood ran down through his eyes and then down his cheeks. He died in your place. He died in Kelly’s place.He died in Carol’s place. He died so that even when you die, you will live, and not only will you live but you will be forever with me.”
I held tightly to Kelly and thought, “I wouldn’t have done it. I wouldn’t have sacrificed my kids to safe anyone. God truly does love us so so deeply.”
My cries to the Lord during surgery were, “Please don’t leave me!”
His gentle response to me was, “I will never let you go.”
Oh wow! something bizarre just happened as I was writing.
What I am about to say is the absolute truth. As I write this Tip I have my headphones on and I am listening to a song, a lullaby by Plumb called “Solomon’s Song”. I did not plan this, it just happens to be on the playlist I am listening to. The lyrics are saying this line right now. “I will never leave you. I am always here. I will never leave you. I am always near.”
“Wow, Jesus! I love you too.”
That was cool!
